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Not dead. Just busy. despite a bad weekend, i still am a sappy sucker. at the walker art center, minneapolis. post-road trip without the boy ramble. lunch. |
05.12.03 - 12:18 pm i wanted to paint it all black. You
drove by in a black or perhaps brown Honda long before the show and looked at all of us waiting to hear the gospel according to you. The girl in front of me (some highschool aged bimbo, i wanted to tell her i was going to stab her in the head) screamed "I love you, you are beautiful!" And I wondered if she even knew the words. And we are your wind-up cars in motion as we swirl into the room, two hours of sitting along the wall outside and now we are here. They touch me, check my purse, make sure I'm not some suicide bomber; but don't find my cigarettes and that's okay, because I won't smoke them in here. It's just a crowded room, nothing magical when you take the stage, drunk and coughing, finally, after two bands that no one paid much mind to but me. ("Arab Strap was lovely, don't you think?" we say to each other.) From where I stand, three rows back, head upturned, it looks like you are wearing eyeliner as you take up your guitar and stare wide-eyed as a child in front of the penguin exhibit at the zoo out over this unruly throng. And if I could I'd apologize for the people in this crowd, but they are yours, not mine, to apologize for; the girls that scream your name as you pretend not to want it, you say you don't want this fame but somewhere in the depths of you something lurks that eats it up, a sort of elder god of the soul, a soul-cthulhu that grows each time some pretentious little girl screams your name coupled with an offer of sex. Perhaps you are right, and everything you are now is trite and a waste of my time, but the old words still mean so much, still cut like knives as we all sing about wolves and war and love. But there's so much more bullshit now, from the way you stand, to the way you slow slow slow singing to some girl in the balcony like some boy wonder; And you cough between lines and end the show early, the children leaving disappointed but me, I just leave. Someone tell me this will all blow over soon. ------------------------ My boyfriend and I went to see Bright Eyes at the Sokol Auditorium last night. I am never going there again to see any Saddle Creek band. I'd rather drive the extra hour to Minneapolis. |